you want apologies.

boy, you might hold your breath
until your breathing stops forever.
the only thing you'll get
is this curse on your lips:
i hope they taste of me forever.

it's over and done.
and i've accepted that.

now, only hatred fills my heart.
and maybe regret.
the regret of letting go of myself
just because i thought you were the one.
just because i thought this would last forever.
no, honey, it's not you i hate.
it's this insane way of thinking that something could actually last forever.
that something in my life could actually make sense.
that something can actually function right.

remember this:
nothing lasts forever. the only thing that's constant is change.
or something like that.

i can only laugh my ass off now.
l--m--a--o. peterpan. p33n. oh how i love you and your ways.

damn regret.

i still love you, you know.
not in the way that i did before.
but in a way that i am thankful that you saved me a whole lot of times.

damn regret.

realization:
what was once us now never was.

DAMN REGRET.