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WHY DO YOU MAKE IT SO HARD FOR ME TO TALK TO YOU??

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i haven't felt this fcked up since '07.

Everything's going downhill again. If it's even possible, I'm feeling crappier than before. Been having weird thoughts. Way weird feelings. It just hasn't been great for me lately. Frustrating.

I can't even laugh it off anymore. It's THAT bad.

I need alcohol. STAT.

06November2008

I had no idea that I felt this way at one point in time. Found this in my journal.

“And he looked at me, his eyes piercing through my sould, seeing all the qualities the rest would never see. I looked down in shame. Shame that he might see something unpleasant in me. It sent shivers down my spine and made my knees tremble, sending me face down to the floor.

He has a hold on me that is as unique as he is. A hold so strong that I couldn’t break free no matter how hard i tried. There were times when I thought that maybe I couldn’t break free because I didn’t want to. I felt like I’d be lost without the force that he exerted on me to keep me within his grasp. It shook me to the core like nothing else ever did, it scared me and yet it was a comfort to know that he was the only one who could do this to me.”