upside down.

every single thought i had yesterday is contradicted by my thoughts today.
i seem to be like that lately.
hate you today.
love you tomorrow.
despise myself every single day.

i do regret more than i admit.
ever since i accepted what you wanted me to,
my mind has been at war with my heart.
the former wanting to forget about you,
the latter being stubborn and deciding to constantly remind me about you.
i want to forget you so badly.
but i'm afraid i am no longer in control of my thoughts and feelings.

inside out.