there is nothing between us but air.

words written by her.
spoken to you.
felt by me.

slice me open and you will find countless shards of what used to be my heart.

hold on, we're almost there.

he loved me more than i could ever love myself.
he filled in the empty spaces. i was broken and he picked up all the pieces.
he helped me find my way. but in the midst of the journey, he up and left.
he abandoned me. i was lost once again. only at that time, it was worse.
i was lost and he was the only one who could save me. why? because he took away my ability to love.
to believe in people.
to believe in myself.
i couldn't even love myself for quite some time. because i loved him with all of me. i loved him so much that i forgot to save some for myself.
i gave him everything, and he willingly took it.
he gave what he can, but not everything. i took what i could.

i'm tired of settling.
i was never one to settle.
i always wanted more. worked for more. starved for more.

i hate that he changed me.
but i love myself now.
or at least i'm learning.

i'm so close that i can taste it.