is it just me?

or do we always crave for something we can't have?
whether it be as practical as a comfort food,
as simple as a hoodie,
as crazy as trading lives with another person,
or as impossible as asking to be loved by another human being --
who, mind you, is about a thousand miles away,
and knows nothing of your existence.
we always seem to be magnetized to longing for something
that is unreachable.

i guess that way, when you finally get who/at you want,
which is not necessarily who/at you need
nor deserve,
the feeling that you've finally sufficed your craving
would be greater than you can imagine.
it would be indescribable.

but then again..

if you fail to win who/at you are chasing after,
the feeling of disappointment,
of every negative emotion you have in your body
would be worse than you could ever imagine.
the pain would be unbelievable.
it will consume you.

this is what makes me want to give up
on my hope of meeting you.
of getting to know you.
of making you fall in love with me.
it would be great if that could happen.
but if i don't get to do all those things,
if, for some insane reason, fate decides
that our paths should never cross,
then what will be left of me?

i will be as empty as can be
or maybe even emptier.
the emptiness will eat up my faith,
it will eat up everything i ever chose to believe in.

nothing will be left of me.
nothing but this insane desire to have you.

it's all or nothing for me.
i'd either have you in my arms
or die trying.