i just want to bring you down so badly in the worst way.

i want to hurt you
with every cell in my body,
with all of my strength.
i want to beat you up so badly
that you won't be able to see the light of day.
bust your lips.
punch out a few teeth.
bruise your whole body.
cut your skin.
more like peel it off your body.
fish your eyes out.
anything to make you hurt.

in the end though,
i will end up hurting myself.
either way, i'm at the losing end.
i could never hurt you.

truth is
i'd rather cause myself pain than see you suffer.