Sit back and relax.

Watch it all fall back into place, or fall apart.
It hurts to see it all fade away. I just wish I could see it in his eyes.
I wish he needs me as much as I need him.
Can I not like you for a while?
But then again, I wish you would notice me. I know it's impossible.
Yet impossible is nothing.
Too many thoughts. I'm telling all of you, never leave me alone. It's dangerous for me. And for him.

If I could sleep walk to him, then I would.
So then I could say I killed him in my sleep.
Because I don't think I could do it awake.
When I'm awake, I kill myself slowly. So there's clearly no time to waste on plotting his death.
Too busy burying myself alive.





I'm back here.
I can't believe it.

Sit back and relapse.